CD21

It's day 21 of this cycle, and I am pretty sure its a dud. I can't get the progesterone test today, thanks to it being a saturday, so I will LH test tomorrow and go for the blood test first thing Monday.

Here is what scares me about TTC: the next step is injectables. We can try another cycle with monitoring on Femara, but I am on the max dosage, so I don't know what that would do. The issue with injectables is the cost. Without insurance, the cost of one cycle is around $2000 usually. I am super concerned that my insurance isn't going to cover it. I guess a phone call is in order. If our insurance doesn't cover it, we will have to stop fertility treatments, at least for the time being. I'm not super worried about that, since my heart isn't set on this anyways. I also don't know if ivf is something I am willing to consider, since again, the cost is so high and there is no guarantee that you will get pregnant, plus there are a lot of risks. I understand why some women will do it, but I don't know if it's for me.

Back on the journey...

So, I realized today, when looking at my WomanLogPro calendar, that day 21 of this cycle is Saturday.

I have mixed feelings. I am pretty sure I didn't ovulate. I didn't even bother calling CVS because I am pretty positive that I didn't, and that one OPK was a fluke. However, I also realize that I have to look at this like a marathon, and not a sprint. I am only in my 4th assisted cycle. I am only on my second drug. There are still options.

I think, what I need to do is to find a way to give fertility treatments the best shot I can, while not getting too frustrated with the process. Which means not obsessing over whether the LH test is darker today than yesterday, but also it means remembering to test....EVERY day. In any case, this blog is changing as I go. I guess now it is the journey to parenthood, and not necessarily strictly about TTC.

After my dad expressed concerns about adoption, I did a lot of research to see if I could find a way to discuss it with him. I did, and I also found some good books on the subject. Expect some book reviews in the next few days. Monday my dad and stepmom are coming for dinner, and we want to talk to them about the adoption process a little more. I really hope all goes well. We aren't going to adopt until after we finish infertility treatments one way or another, but we do want to at least start getting every one on board.

Test Time!

So the period is officially over, as of Friday. Today is CD 12, and so yesterday I started LH testing. I actually started 3 days ago, just to be safe.

According to PeeOnAStick.com (which is a fantastic site for info on OPK and HPT's), LH is synthesized early in the morning, so I can't use first morning urine.

So, I ate a good breakfast, drank some water, andwaited to test. According to the site, the best time to test is between 2 and 4 pm. I am nervous about missing the LH surge, so I will probably test twice a day, around 2pm and again, if I don't get a positive, in the evening before bed.

This is crunch time! I am nervous that I won't ovulate. It's stupid, because I know that Clomid doesn't always work the first time, and even if it DOES, I know that I still may not get pregnant the first time.

So I took the test at like 11:30, because I have no patience. It was negative. Took it again at 2:40 PM, and it's still negative. So yesterday wasn't the day. My doctor said to have sex every other day, so we did have sex yesterday, just in case. I will post my LH results for today later.

*Some info: Keep in mind that I am giving my info exclusively. You may not have the same experiences.*

-Clomid costs $11.99 a pill without my insurance, I paid $4.00 for the bottle (10 pills)
-With insurance, my 2 doctors visits cost $175.00, without it, the bill was $674.00 (includes two pelvic exams, endometrial scrape, etc.)
-With insurance, my bloodwork was $265.45, without it, the bill was $6,066.00

Duh....

So, I did something kind of stupid just now; I wanted to do an LH test today. My period ended yesterday, but I figured it couldnt hurt. I didn't do with FMU, because I have read that it will give you an inaccurate reading, so I waited allll day till like 5 mibutes ago to pee again, and then when I got in the bathroom (LH test in hand), I peed without peeing ON it.

Because I am that kind of special.