So...the nurse called.
According to my progesterone test, I did NOT ovulate.
Ummm...excuse me? I am pretty sure the spotting and the cramps beg to differ!
I was too surprised to protest, so she then told me the next thing was a Hysterosalpingogram (HSG) to see if I have blocked tubes or scarring or anything. For this to happen, I have to take antibiotics beforehand, and take ibuprofen for the cramping. Why cramping? Frankly, because they are putting things up your hoo ha that don't belong.
Anyways, after scheduling my HSG, I realized I still hadn't told her that I was spotting. So I called and left a message.
Why is my body so friggin complicated?
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Tuesday, September 11, 2012
Monday, August 27, 2012
Updates and Adoption
Well, so far, I think this cycle is another big fat fail. No signs of ovulation yet. In fact, I noticed yesterday that the result strip in my LH test was LIGHTER than it has been recently, and it's only CD17, so that is probably not a good sign. I am a little bummed out, and I am glad that the next cycle will be a break for us. We are not going to do any fertility drugs while we plan for the hormone shots. I need to have some testing done, as does Greg, to make sure everything else is working properly. I need to make sure there are no blockages in my tubes, and I think check egg quality or something, and Greggypooh has to have a semen analysis. Like a dork, he forgot his last appointment, so I am sure it will take 7 years to get another one. Oh well.
On the adoption front, we are moving along steadily. I am still worried, but ok. I just think instead of having a little fear the whole way through, like most people do, I got it all at once. Greg and I have talked a LOT about it, and I know we are ready. I have also done a LOT of reading. Like, 4 books in about 2 weeks, and 1 more in the mail. Plus all of the homework, adoption blogs, and websites.
Here are my reviews of some of the books I have read:
In On It: What Adoptive Parents Would Like You To Know About Adoption. A Guide for Relatives and Friends.; and Adoption Is A Family Affair: What Relatives And Friends Should Know
I am reviewing these together because they are pretty similar. I really got these books for my parents, but I read them first, to make sure they were what I was looking for, and they totally were. They give a basic overview of adoption, and talk about how the children are the victims, not the offenders, and how it is important to remember that. They also talk a lot about the right things to say, and the wrong things, how to be supportive of adoptive parents without being judgemental or interfering with their parenting. Overall, great, relatively quick reads that will help open the floor for discussion. Even if you are just considering adoption, I think these are a great place to start. They are very much alike, but I think it is still beneficial to read both if you can!
Parenting the Hurt Child: Helping Adoptive Families Heal and Grow
*Before I write this review, I have to give a disclaimer. The authors of this book are supporters of Holding Therapy, which I believe to be a dangerous, and detrimental practice. I do not support the authors views on holding therapy (aka attachment therapy or Z-therapy). This therapy has been attributed to several deaths in children. *
This book is an eye-opener for anyone considering adopting from foster care. They do not sugar coat the issues that some of these kids have. While it deals mainly with kids who suffer from RAD or ODD and other severe issues, it definitely covers the more mainstream issues. For example, it talks about how kids who did not get a lot of verbal stimulation as children may not be able to follow commands properly, and that scolding them as you would a child who did not have a neglectful childhood can be detrimental. There are a lot of examples and testimonials from parents and children. They give a lot of interesting tips and suggestions for changing the way you think about parenting and discipline. One of the most interesting things was that instead of giving time-outs, having them do a chore with the parent, like washing the car or gardening, gives them the lesson that negative actions have negative consequences, but also gives them an opportunity to attach to the parent, and discuss the negative action. Another extremely valuable tip was to make sure that any therapist you choose has experience in adoption counseling, and understands that you need to know about everything discussed in therapy, and will not challenge your control as a parent. I could go on about the suggestions for hours. There is a lot of good information in this book if you discount the holding suggestions.
On the adoption front, we are moving along steadily. I am still worried, but ok. I just think instead of having a little fear the whole way through, like most people do, I got it all at once. Greg and I have talked a LOT about it, and I know we are ready. I have also done a LOT of reading. Like, 4 books in about 2 weeks, and 1 more in the mail. Plus all of the homework, adoption blogs, and websites.
Here are my reviews of some of the books I have read:
I am reviewing these together because they are pretty similar. I really got these books for my parents, but I read them first, to make sure they were what I was looking for, and they totally were. They give a basic overview of adoption, and talk about how the children are the victims, not the offenders, and how it is important to remember that. They also talk a lot about the right things to say, and the wrong things, how to be supportive of adoptive parents without being judgemental or interfering with their parenting. Overall, great, relatively quick reads that will help open the floor for discussion. Even if you are just considering adoption, I think these are a great place to start. They are very much alike, but I think it is still beneficial to read both if you can!
*Before I write this review, I have to give a disclaimer. The authors of this book are supporters of Holding Therapy, which I believe to be a dangerous, and detrimental practice. I do not support the authors views on holding therapy (aka attachment therapy or Z-therapy). This therapy has been attributed to several deaths in children. *
This book is an eye-opener for anyone considering adopting from foster care. They do not sugar coat the issues that some of these kids have. While it deals mainly with kids who suffer from RAD or ODD and other severe issues, it definitely covers the more mainstream issues. For example, it talks about how kids who did not get a lot of verbal stimulation as children may not be able to follow commands properly, and that scolding them as you would a child who did not have a neglectful childhood can be detrimental. There are a lot of examples and testimonials from parents and children. They give a lot of interesting tips and suggestions for changing the way you think about parenting and discipline. One of the most interesting things was that instead of giving time-outs, having them do a chore with the parent, like washing the car or gardening, gives them the lesson that negative actions have negative consequences, but also gives them an opportunity to attach to the parent, and discuss the negative action. Another extremely valuable tip was to make sure that any therapist you choose has experience in adoption counseling, and understands that you need to know about everything discussed in therapy, and will not challenge your control as a parent. I could go on about the suggestions for hours. There is a lot of good information in this book if you discount the holding suggestions.
Sunday, August 19, 2012
Thoughts
I am still dealing with these feelings of loss. That's the best way to describe it. I will be gaining soooo much, but in doing so, I will be losing this closeness and freedom with my husband. I will have to share him, and I guess I have to wrap my head around that some more.
Remember how I mentioned that there was a little boy we were interested in, and then his picture was gone? Well, now he isn't even listed anymore. I am assuming that means he has been adopted, and that is just awesome! I am a little sad, because I guess I had a sort of weird attachment to him somehow. I have learned that I need to keep my head open, and not get so ahead of myself!
I finished my last course of Femara a couple days ago. My period is over. This morning, I had a slight cramp in my lower right abdomen..right where my ovaries are...could it have worked? Do I have a maturing follicle? Time for OPK's!
Remember how I mentioned that there was a little boy we were interested in, and then his picture was gone? Well, now he isn't even listed anymore. I am assuming that means he has been adopted, and that is just awesome! I am a little sad, because I guess I had a sort of weird attachment to him somehow. I have learned that I need to keep my head open, and not get so ahead of myself!
I finished my last course of Femara a couple days ago. My period is over. This morning, I had a slight cramp in my lower right abdomen..right where my ovaries are...could it have worked? Do I have a maturing follicle? Time for OPK's!
Friday, August 17, 2012
Selfishness
Last night, I had a realization;
One way or another, Greg and I are coming to the end of our time of being "just us". Where we are the center of eachothers worlds. We don't have to worry about anyone else's feelings, ideas, plans besides our own.
I guess I realized this at some point, because we have talked about it before. It just became....real. What if I don't want to share this magnificent, wonderful, handsome, sweet, amazing man with anyone else. What if I want to keep being the center of his world? And keep him at the center of mine? It actually brought me to tears last night. I have been so gung-ho about the whole process, adoption and fertility treatments and thinking about what we would be gaining, that I didn't think about what we would be losing.
For the first time since we started pursuing having children, I am scared.
One way or another, Greg and I are coming to the end of our time of being "just us". Where we are the center of eachothers worlds. We don't have to worry about anyone else's feelings, ideas, plans besides our own.
I guess I realized this at some point, because we have talked about it before. It just became....real. What if I don't want to share this magnificent, wonderful, handsome, sweet, amazing man with anyone else. What if I want to keep being the center of his world? And keep him at the center of mine? It actually brought me to tears last night. I have been so gung-ho about the whole process, adoption and fertility treatments and thinking about what we would be gaining, that I didn't think about what we would be losing.
For the first time since we started pursuing having children, I am scared.
Monday, August 6, 2012
Docta Docta, Gimme The News!
Lamest. Title. EVER.
Anyways...I have a doctors appointment at 4. We are doing another cycle with Femara, but he wants to talk about the next step, which is injectables. Greg is coming, so that makes me happy. I am glad he tries to make an effort to be involved in this process. He told me the decisions are up to me, but its nice to have someone to bounce my thoughts and concerns off of. I will update later.
BTW...the Provera, so far, is not affecting me NEARLY as bad as it did last cycle. From the first day or so that I started taking it last cycle I was a wreck. I am tired, but that is because I didn't get to bed late. I can tell my cravings are all over the place...I am constantly eating, but I am trying to make sure its fruits and veggies mainly!
*Update* Ok, so basically, the doctor isn't super optimistic about this round of Femara. He did agree to do progesterone test on CD24 instead of 21, to see if I ovulate a little later, or if my progesterone numbers are any higher. THEN...we will do the fun stuff. Injectables. I will probably take a max of 1 ampule a day, with a lot of monitoring to make sure I don't become octomom. He said that my insurance *should* cover it, but that the hospital he is affiliated with has a pharmacy that sells it for relatively cheap, so I could buy it out of pocket there if I don't want to push my maximum. He also wants me to do all the testing we had skipped before...fallopian tube check, more hormone check, Greg is getting a semen analysis (luckily I already scheduled this, since it took almost a month to get the appointment!), just to be sure that before we do this, everything else okee dokee.
Anyways...I have a doctors appointment at 4. We are doing another cycle with Femara, but he wants to talk about the next step, which is injectables. Greg is coming, so that makes me happy. I am glad he tries to make an effort to be involved in this process. He told me the decisions are up to me, but its nice to have someone to bounce my thoughts and concerns off of. I will update later.
BTW...the Provera, so far, is not affecting me NEARLY as bad as it did last cycle. From the first day or so that I started taking it last cycle I was a wreck. I am tired, but that is because I didn't get to bed late. I can tell my cravings are all over the place...I am constantly eating, but I am trying to make sure its fruits and veggies mainly!
*Update* Ok, so basically, the doctor isn't super optimistic about this round of Femara. He did agree to do progesterone test on CD24 instead of 21, to see if I ovulate a little later, or if my progesterone numbers are any higher. THEN...we will do the fun stuff. Injectables. I will probably take a max of 1 ampule a day, with a lot of monitoring to make sure I don't become octomom. He said that my insurance *should* cover it, but that the hospital he is affiliated with has a pharmacy that sells it for relatively cheap, so I could buy it out of pocket there if I don't want to push my maximum. He also wants me to do all the testing we had skipped before...fallopian tube check, more hormone check, Greg is getting a semen analysis (luckily I already scheduled this, since it took almost a month to get the appointment!), just to be sure that before we do this, everything else okee dokee.
Saturday, July 28, 2012
CD21
It's day 21 of this cycle, and I am pretty sure its a dud. I can't get the progesterone test today, thanks to it being a saturday, so I will LH test tomorrow and go for the blood test first thing Monday.
Here is what scares me about TTC: the next step is injectables. We can try another cycle with monitoring on Femara, but I am on the max dosage, so I don't know what that would do. The issue with injectables is the cost. Without insurance, the cost of one cycle is around $2000 usually. I am super concerned that my insurance isn't going to cover it. I guess a phone call is in order. If our insurance doesn't cover it, we will have to stop fertility treatments, at least for the time being. I'm not super worried about that, since my heart isn't set on this anyways. I also don't know if ivf is something I am willing to consider, since again, the cost is so high and there is no guarantee that you will get pregnant, plus there are a lot of risks. I understand why some women will do it, but I don't know if it's for me.
Here is what scares me about TTC: the next step is injectables. We can try another cycle with monitoring on Femara, but I am on the max dosage, so I don't know what that would do. The issue with injectables is the cost. Without insurance, the cost of one cycle is around $2000 usually. I am super concerned that my insurance isn't going to cover it. I guess a phone call is in order. If our insurance doesn't cover it, we will have to stop fertility treatments, at least for the time being. I'm not super worried about that, since my heart isn't set on this anyways. I also don't know if ivf is something I am willing to consider, since again, the cost is so high and there is no guarantee that you will get pregnant, plus there are a lot of risks. I understand why some women will do it, but I don't know if it's for me.
Thursday, July 26, 2012
Back on the journey...
So, I realized today, when looking at my WomanLogPro calendar, that day 21 of this cycle is Saturday.
I have mixed feelings. I am pretty sure I didn't ovulate. I didn't even bother calling CVS because I am pretty positive that I didn't, and that one OPK was a fluke. However, I also realize that I have to look at this like a marathon, and not a sprint. I am only in my 4th assisted cycle. I am only on my second drug. There are still options.
I think, what I need to do is to find a way to give fertility treatments the best shot I can, while not getting too frustrated with the process. Which means not obsessing over whether the LH test is darker today than yesterday, but also it means remembering to test....EVERY day. In any case, this blog is changing as I go. I guess now it is the journey to parenthood, and not necessarily strictly about TTC.
After my dad expressed concerns about adoption, I did a lot of research to see if I could find a way to discuss it with him. I did, and I also found some good books on the subject. Expect some book reviews in the next few days. Monday my dad and stepmom are coming for dinner, and we want to talk to them about the adoption process a little more. I really hope all goes well. We aren't going to adopt until after we finish infertility treatments one way or another, but we do want to at least start getting every one on board.
I have mixed feelings. I am pretty sure I didn't ovulate. I didn't even bother calling CVS because I am pretty positive that I didn't, and that one OPK was a fluke. However, I also realize that I have to look at this like a marathon, and not a sprint. I am only in my 4th assisted cycle. I am only on my second drug. There are still options.
I think, what I need to do is to find a way to give fertility treatments the best shot I can, while not getting too frustrated with the process. Which means not obsessing over whether the LH test is darker today than yesterday, but also it means remembering to test....EVERY day. In any case, this blog is changing as I go. I guess now it is the journey to parenthood, and not necessarily strictly about TTC.
After my dad expressed concerns about adoption, I did a lot of research to see if I could find a way to discuss it with him. I did, and I also found some good books on the subject. Expect some book reviews in the next few days. Monday my dad and stepmom are coming for dinner, and we want to talk to them about the adoption process a little more. I really hope all goes well. We aren't going to adopt until after we finish infertility treatments one way or another, but we do want to at least start getting every one on board.
Sunday, June 24, 2012
Ch-ch-ch-changes
Ok, so first of all, my titles get lamer every post. Sorry.
I have decided to not be anonymous. Not that I am going to give out all my personal info, but for posterity I think I need to be able to say where I am, names, etc. I spoke to DH (Greg) about it, and he said it was fine with him.
I had to drive to Tampa at 7am in a tropical storm, on a Sunday, to have another ultrasound. Not. Fun. Luckily, Greg came with me and we had a lot of fun, but I always have fun with him. It was even more fun when I was having the ultrasound and the guy said "It looks like you've ovulated!" I can't even convey how happy I was to hear those words. Greg smiled at me from his chair. Neither of the follicles were there anymore! Then, the doctor confused the heck outta me! He said I should have my progesterone test on CD21 as planned to make sure I ovulated.
So here is my question; If I had TWO maturing follicles, at 12 and 10mm 2 days ago, and now I have ZERO follicles, if I didn't ovulate, what happened to them?
ANYWAYS...Greg and I excitedly made the treck through the storm home because we had very specific orders from the doctor to have sex asap! You have to obey your doctors orders!
Also, I didn't see a positive LH test, even though I tested EVERY day. So did I miss it? Or did I not ovulate? Gah! So confusing!
ALSO; is a follicle that was approximately 14mm (at 2mm a day) viable?
I have decided to not be anonymous. Not that I am going to give out all my personal info, but for posterity I think I need to be able to say where I am, names, etc. I spoke to DH (Greg) about it, and he said it was fine with him.
I had to drive to Tampa at 7am in a tropical storm, on a Sunday, to have another ultrasound. Not. Fun. Luckily, Greg came with me and we had a lot of fun, but I always have fun with him. It was even more fun when I was having the ultrasound and the guy said "It looks like you've ovulated!" I can't even convey how happy I was to hear those words. Greg smiled at me from his chair. Neither of the follicles were there anymore! Then, the doctor confused the heck outta me! He said I should have my progesterone test on CD21 as planned to make sure I ovulated.
So here is my question; If I had TWO maturing follicles, at 12 and 10mm 2 days ago, and now I have ZERO follicles, if I didn't ovulate, what happened to them?
ANYWAYS...Greg and I excitedly made the treck through the storm home because we had very specific orders from the doctor to have sex asap! You have to obey your doctors orders!
Also, I didn't see a positive LH test, even though I tested EVERY day. So did I miss it? Or did I not ovulate? Gah! So confusing!
ALSO; is a follicle that was approximately 14mm (at 2mm a day) viable?
Monday, June 4, 2012
Priming for round two!
I took my last Provera last night! Yay!
So far, the moodiness seems to be less intense. I can tell that I am still all over the place but it isn't as extreme. It probably has a lot to do with the fact that we are really happy in our new house, and that I know what to expect now. Also, I think the worst symptoms were actually after I had finished the Provera, like 3 days before I had my period. I was on a rampage! Hopefully I continue to maintain my balance!
I am really excited and have a good feeling about this cycle. I have been trying to eat better, and succeeding. I haven't been exercising since I got really sick, so I need to start doing that again for sure. I am very hopeful that this will be the cycle. I just have a feeling. I really hope I am right.
So far, the moodiness seems to be less intense. I can tell that I am still all over the place but it isn't as extreme. It probably has a lot to do with the fact that we are really happy in our new house, and that I know what to expect now. Also, I think the worst symptoms were actually after I had finished the Provera, like 3 days before I had my period. I was on a rampage! Hopefully I continue to maintain my balance!
I am really excited and have a good feeling about this cycle. I have been trying to eat better, and succeeding. I haven't been exercising since I got really sick, so I need to start doing that again for sure. I am very hopeful that this will be the cycle. I just have a feeling. I really hope I am right.
Friday, June 1, 2012
No news is good news
So far so good on the new medicines. I seem less moody this time around, but we are only a couple days in. I think the glucophage is messing with my appetite. I am almost never hungry, and when I eat I feel sick almost immediately afterwards. Maybe I just still have a little tummy bug.
Sorry my posts are so sporadic lately! We moved and I STILL haven't gotten the internet hooked up so I have to do this on my phone or if I can steal internet from a neighbor for a second. It will be back up this week.
Sorry my posts are so sporadic lately! We moved and I STILL haven't gotten the internet hooked up so I have to do this on my phone or if I can steal internet from a neighbor for a second. It will be back up this week.
Wednesday, May 30, 2012
Provera Round Two
So far the side effects this time around seem to be a little less intense. I am definitely moody, and really sleepy. No headaches so far.
I keep forgetting to take the glucophage (metformin) with my meal, so I have to take it like 20 minutes later. I can't tell if I am having any side effects from that, although I am pretty gassy and really thirsty.
I am typing from my phone because we haven't had the time to get internet in our new house, so I am keeping it short and sweet!
Friday, May 25, 2012
Adios cycle one!
So Thursday was CD21, and I diligently had my blood work done. I was waiting for a call from my doctor, but it didn't come the same day, so I was definitely hoping it would today, before the long weekend.
Instead, I got a call from my pharmacy telling me that my prescriptions were ready for pickup. I asked her what they were, and she said clomid, provera, and metformin. Now, I know it's a long weekend, and maybe that's all I should attribute it to, but I am more than a little peeved that the nurse wouldn't call and discuss my results really quickly with me, and maybe let me know that they wanted to try me on metformin. I have discussed the drug metformin before, and I talked about it with the doctor, but he seemed to think it wasn't necessary, so I would love to know why he thought it was now. Also, I didn't get a chance to ask about my weirdo LH tests.
So, I called the office and left a message. Hopefully, they will call back in the next couple hours so I have some answers.
Also, I think I was wrong when I said that both appointments cost me $175. They cost me $175 each I think. I will check and get back to you *mental note to change the info in previous blog posts when I verify this*.
Right now, DH and I are getting a little concerned about money, because we are signing on our house, which was a planned expense, and my 1st car payment on my new car, which was an UNPLANNED expense, is coming up. We knew we were going to get another car because his is on its way out. However, we planned on having about 6 months of no car payments and cheaper insurance to save for a downpayment. Instead, my car was in accident and is no more. We got some money for it, but not enough to compensate for having to get another car at the slowest part of the year for me. And his car is still old enough to vote. Anyways, the point is money is tight, and I know babies are expensive, but I didn't know MAKING a baby was going to be expensive.
We are moving in to our new house this week. And I will possibly be on Provera. Pray for my husband.
Instead, I got a call from my pharmacy telling me that my prescriptions were ready for pickup. I asked her what they were, and she said clomid, provera, and metformin. Now, I know it's a long weekend, and maybe that's all I should attribute it to, but I am more than a little peeved that the nurse wouldn't call and discuss my results really quickly with me, and maybe let me know that they wanted to try me on metformin. I have discussed the drug metformin before, and I talked about it with the doctor, but he seemed to think it wasn't necessary, so I would love to know why he thought it was now. Also, I didn't get a chance to ask about my weirdo LH tests.
So, I called the office and left a message. Hopefully, they will call back in the next couple hours so I have some answers.
Also, I think I was wrong when I said that both appointments cost me $175. They cost me $175 each I think. I will check and get back to you *mental note to change the info in previous blog posts when I verify this*.
Right now, DH and I are getting a little concerned about money, because we are signing on our house, which was a planned expense, and my 1st car payment on my new car, which was an UNPLANNED expense, is coming up. We knew we were going to get another car because his is on its way out. However, we planned on having about 6 months of no car payments and cheaper insurance to save for a downpayment. Instead, my car was in accident and is no more. We got some money for it, but not enough to compensate for having to get another car at the slowest part of the year for me. And his car is still old enough to vote. Anyways, the point is money is tight, and I know babies are expensive, but I didn't know MAKING a baby was going to be expensive.
We are moving in to our new house this week. And I will possibly be on Provera. Pray for my husband.
Friday, May 11, 2012
Duh....
So, I did something kind of stupid just now; I wanted to do an LH test today. My period ended yesterday, but I figured it couldnt hurt. I didn't do with FMU, because I have read that it will give you an inaccurate reading, so I waited allll day till like 5 mibutes ago to pee again, and then when I got in the bathroom (LH test in hand), I peed without peeing ON it.
Because I am that kind of special.
Wednesday, May 2, 2012
Still nothing...
Well it is day seven after having finished the Provera. No period, but my boobs hurt, and I am still kind of cranky. What gives? After doing a little internet reading (never a good idea), I am wondering if I don't get a period in the next three days, I should request to try prometrium instead? Why wouldn't you get a period after taking it? I couldn't find any explanation as to why, except that I might be pregnant. I highly doubt that's the reason it isn't working. Do I just try it again? What happens? I sincerely hope I get my period in the next 3 days, or I am going to freak out!
Sunday, April 29, 2012
Waiting game...
Well, it's been four days since my last Provera. I always feel like I am going to have my period the next day, and I am running back and forth to the bathroom to make sure. I also can tell I am still cranky, and my boobs are achy, and obviously, I am still whiny. I have never before been so excited to get my period!
I also got bills from the doctors office and the labwork. My insurance covered a LOT of it, but I still owe a bunch. For the labwork, before insurance, cost was like $6,000 dollars. I only have to pay $256. I don't remember the original costs of the doctor, but I have to pay about $175. That includes two vaginal ultrasounds, visits, full pelvic exam, etc. Not too shabby. Also, I forgot to say that the Provera (generic) was about $4.00. I tried to find out costs before I started this process, and couldn't find info anywhere. I can't guarantee that your costs will be the same, but at least it may help someone!
I also got bills from the doctors office and the labwork. My insurance covered a LOT of it, but I still owe a bunch. For the labwork, before insurance, cost was like $6,000 dollars. I only have to pay $256. I don't remember the original costs of the doctor, but I have to pay about $175. That includes two vaginal ultrasounds, visits, full pelvic exam, etc. Not too shabby. Also, I forgot to say that the Provera (generic) was about $4.00. I tried to find out costs before I started this process, and couldn't find info anywhere. I can't guarantee that your costs will be the same, but at least it may help someone!
Wednesday, April 18, 2012
Side Effects
So far the most pronounced side effect I have had with the progesterone pill is drowsiness. I just feel groggy and half asleep all the time. It wouldn't be as much of an issue if I didn't have to be up at 5:30am, and had a day off, but I am working every day this week to cover for someone else.
Also, quitting caffeine is just not going to happen while I am on this medication. I drink about 2 cups of coffee a day, and I can probably cut back a little, but I have to be able to function at work.
I definitely had a headache yesterday, and had a little dizziness and some moodiness. Today seems better though, so hopefully my body gets used to the drugs and I can muddle through for the next 8 days! I was taking the pills at 10:30pm, because that's when my husband usually takes his and I figured I would remember to take mine when he was taking his, but I think taking them earlier is a good idea, so I am going to take them at 8pm.
Also, quitting caffeine is just not going to happen while I am on this medication. I drink about 2 cups of coffee a day, and I can probably cut back a little, but I have to be able to function at work.
I definitely had a headache yesterday, and had a little dizziness and some moodiness. Today seems better though, so hopefully my body gets used to the drugs and I can muddle through for the next 8 days! I was taking the pills at 10:30pm, because that's when my husband usually takes his and I figured I would remember to take mine when he was taking his, but I think taking them earlier is a good idea, so I am going to take them at 8pm.
Tuesday, April 17, 2012
This...sucks.
Oh my gosh....I know I complain a lot lately, but holy cow! The Provera has sent me for a loop! I have a headache and cramps that feel like pms basically. I am exhausted like I got no sleep, even though I was out for a solid 7 hours.
This is not going to be a fun few days! Especially considering I decided last night post-blogging that I need to kick the caffeine habit starting today. Yeah...medicine causing headaches PLUS caffeine headaches! Aren't I going to be a barrel of laughs! Pray for my poor husband!
I am going to stop at CVS on my way to work to get some acetaminophen, since it's the only pain reliever that I have read doesn't cause miscarriage. I know I am not pregnant yet, but I want the time leading up to my pregnancy to be as healthy as possible.
I hope these side effects are just temporary. Maybe halfway through the day I will feel great.
I don't want to scare anyone away from trying to get pregnant because of the Provera side effects. Keep in mind that women who get a regular period feel like this for a week every month. Us PCOS sufferers can suck it up for a baby.
Monday, April 16, 2012
And now a word from our Husband...
My wife wants me to give some of my thoughts on our situation. I honestly find that very hard to do, even anonymously. Here goes nothing.
Part of me is scared that we are going to be putting all this time, effort and money into this attempt and it doesn't work. I suppose that is part of life though. If we already knew the outcome of life there would be no joy or excitement in it. The only other option is to not try, which doesn't seem like much of an option at all.
I have read all of her previous posts and was very upset to read the part where she was afraid that I might not want to be with her, just because we might have problems conceiving. The truth is that I wouldn't want to have children with anyone else. If my wife was unable to have kids, then I would be unable to have kids. Before I met her I thought that I was never going to have children. I wanted to adopt. I looked at it this way; there are so many children in this world that need a loving family and a safe home that it seemed selfish to me to have kids of your own. That is, until I met my wife (and don't worry, we are DEFINITELY going to adopt still!). Now I want nothing more than to have a child who has all of her wonderful characteristics and I guess some of my crappy ones.
Thursday, April 12, 2012
Sitting and waiting.
I'm here in the doctors office, waiting for him to discuss my test results. While I am waiting, I figured I would write about the last couple weeks.
For one thing, we decided to include some of our family members in our decision to try to conceive.
We told my husbands mom and sister, and they were really happy. As his sister said; "More babies is always good!"
I was really nervous about telling my father, because I know he worries. We told him and my stepmom at Easter dinner. We were ecstatic when they told us how excited they were for us. I really feel like this is going to happen, and I am sitting in a doctors office for the first time without feeling anxious! I feel calm and in control, but very excited!
Today I am really hoping the blood tests were all fine, and that we will start treatment. More on that after the appointment!
For one thing, we decided to include some of our family members in our decision to try to conceive.
We told my husbands mom and sister, and they were really happy. As his sister said; "More babies is always good!"
I was really nervous about telling my father, because I know he worries. We told him and my stepmom at Easter dinner. We were ecstatic when they told us how excited they were for us. I really feel like this is going to happen, and I am sitting in a doctors office for the first time without feeling anxious! I feel calm and in control, but very excited!
Today I am really hoping the blood tests were all fine, and that we will start treatment. More on that after the appointment!
Monday, March 19, 2012
So this is what I am excited about?
I mentioned before that I thought I started my period....lets just say that's been confirmed...with cramps, cravings, sleepiness, and irritability. It's so weird that most girls dread their period. That is until, for whatever reason, they don't get it!
So the appointment was today. I got there early, of course, and the doctor was late, but it was ok. The nurse was fantastic! She was really personable and answered a lot of questions for me and made me really comfortable.
When the doctor got there, he sat with us and went over the information we had given him, and then told us we had a choice:
1. We can do a regular pelvic, transvaginal ultrasound, and a pap (because I am waaaaaaaay overdue), then he will have me get some basic bloodwork done and then he will give a drug to make me have a real period and then I will go on Clomid as long as all is well.
2. I can do the full battery of tests, where I do all the above, but before starting Clomid we weed out any other possibilities. That means a semen analysis for DH, a look at my fellopian tubes for blockages, etc., plus full genetic testing, and adds a couple of months to the time.
He said its up to us, and that since I am young, have a previous diagnosis (that he would confirm) and am in good health. So now we have that decision to make.
Let me tell you about the OTHER part of the visit....allllll those tests in option one! Ugh.
As I mentioned before, I started my period a few days ago. It has been really light, not even spotting really...just some funny colored CM.
Right before the pelvic exam he asks if I need to use the restroom, and I do. I go in and sure enough, I have actually started bleeding! I told the nurse and she said it's fine, since it isn't really a lot (yes, she checked my underwear!). I get on the table- heart sounds good, lungs sound good, breast exam is fine...time for the fun part. The actual pap smear isn't bad, but since I have PCOS he wants to check for endometrial cancer and that test will cause "some minor cramping" and do I want to do that, just to be safe? Sure, why not? It might save me from doing it later.
MINOR CRAMPING MY ASS! I was almost positive an alien was going to burst from my pelvis.
But it's over, and time for the ultrasound. Pretty typical really. Really uncomfortable, but he showed me my ovaries and all the cysts on the outside. He said it looks like typical Polycystic Ovaries, which is good, because we basically know how to treat that. He ALSO said that it looks like I did in fact ovulate during this cycle.
WHAT THE HECK???
So technically, if I had had sex on the right day, we wouldn't even BE here.
Ok...calm down and try to take it as good news. Hey! It looks like my parts all work, they just need to be kicked into gear!
After that, the exam was all over, and my paper gown, my legs, the paper sheet (which is a wee wee pad like you use for a dog) look like the end results of Shark Week, I get to go clean up.
So now, I get to have some basic blood tests (diabetes, a genetic test for those of jewish heritage, and std [j/i/c!] basically), and then make an appointment in about 3 weeks to see where we want to go from there.
DH and I talked about it a little, and I think we are going to skip the major testing. Why worry if there is no need? If I get those tests done before we know there is a problem, I will freak out until I get the results and I don't think I can take that.
So it looks like I will be on Clomid pretty soon! I am excited and scared! Gah!
So the appointment was today. I got there early, of course, and the doctor was late, but it was ok. The nurse was fantastic! She was really personable and answered a lot of questions for me and made me really comfortable.
When the doctor got there, he sat with us and went over the information we had given him, and then told us we had a choice:
1. We can do a regular pelvic, transvaginal ultrasound, and a pap (because I am waaaaaaaay overdue), then he will have me get some basic bloodwork done and then he will give a drug to make me have a real period and then I will go on Clomid as long as all is well.
2. I can do the full battery of tests, where I do all the above, but before starting Clomid we weed out any other possibilities. That means a semen analysis for DH, a look at my fellopian tubes for blockages, etc., plus full genetic testing, and adds a couple of months to the time.
He said its up to us, and that since I am young, have a previous diagnosis (that he would confirm) and am in good health. So now we have that decision to make.
Let me tell you about the OTHER part of the visit....allllll those tests in option one! Ugh.
As I mentioned before, I started my period a few days ago. It has been really light, not even spotting really...just some funny colored CM.
Right before the pelvic exam he asks if I need to use the restroom, and I do. I go in and sure enough, I have actually started bleeding! I told the nurse and she said it's fine, since it isn't really a lot (yes, she checked my underwear!). I get on the table- heart sounds good, lungs sound good, breast exam is fine...time for the fun part. The actual pap smear isn't bad, but since I have PCOS he wants to check for endometrial cancer and that test will cause "some minor cramping" and do I want to do that, just to be safe? Sure, why not? It might save me from doing it later.
MINOR CRAMPING MY ASS! I was almost positive an alien was going to burst from my pelvis.
But it's over, and time for the ultrasound. Pretty typical really. Really uncomfortable, but he showed me my ovaries and all the cysts on the outside. He said it looks like typical Polycystic Ovaries, which is good, because we basically know how to treat that. He ALSO said that it looks like I did in fact ovulate during this cycle.
WHAT THE HECK???
So technically, if I had had sex on the right day, we wouldn't even BE here.
Ok...calm down and try to take it as good news. Hey! It looks like my parts all work, they just need to be kicked into gear!
After that, the exam was all over, and my paper gown, my legs, the paper sheet (which is a wee wee pad like you use for a dog) look like the end results of Shark Week, I get to go clean up.
So now, I get to have some basic blood tests (diabetes, a genetic test for those of jewish heritage, and std [j/i/c!] basically), and then make an appointment in about 3 weeks to see where we want to go from there.
DH and I talked about it a little, and I think we are going to skip the major testing. Why worry if there is no need? If I get those tests done before we know there is a problem, I will freak out until I get the results and I don't think I can take that.
So it looks like I will be on Clomid pretty soon! I am excited and scared! Gah!
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