Thursday, November 8, 2012

November Surprise!

I haven't been on anything besides metformin for about3 months now and I got a random, super crampy, period! I can tell it's going to be pretty light, and more than likely anovulatory, but still...

We are talking about starting the shots soon. I am still nervous though!

Wednesday, October 3, 2012

Meeting 9

I can't believe we are already at meeting 9 in our MAPP class!

Tonight we are turning in our family book. Greg and I made a little video along with it that has a house tour and that sort of thing. We figured if we adopt a younger child who can not read yet, the video will give them enough to go on. It was fun to make, but nerve wracking. It seems easy; just sit in front of a  camera and talk about yourself...hah! As of this moment, the book is not completed. I still have a couple more pictures to add and I need to write a vision statement and a mission statement. I am having a hard time with that. Greg thinks it only needs to be a sentence or so, but I think it needs to be a paragraph.

We are also turning in our birth parent letter. This makes me nervous. I just don't want to say the wrong thing. I want them to know that we care deeply for their child, and that we will never try to break the bond that is there.

Tonight the adoption worker should be there, plus someone from the Coalition who is supposed to tell us the scary stuff, to make us realize exactly what we are signing up for I guess.

I am just so excited I could die! I am ready to start the home study process!

Sunday, September 30, 2012

FAPA Picnic summary

The picnic was amazing. I learned so much, and saw so many beautiful babies. All of the foster and adoptive parents were fantastic, and super helpful. They all wanted to answer all of my and my friends questions, and tell us all about all of their angels.

 I met a beautiful little angel. Her foster mom seemed to think we might be a good fit. This angel will probably be free for adoption soon. Could it be meant to be? The angel fell asleep in my arms while taking a bottle. I was in love.

Foster/Adoptive Parent Association Picnic

I am really excited because today, in just a couple of hours, is the FAPA picnic. The foster mom from our class invited all of us. It's a chance to talk to other people who have gone through this process before us, and to learn, and to actually meet some kids who are up for adoption. My friend is coming with me, who has just started her journey. Greg has to work, so he can't make it. It stinks because he almost never works weekends, but THIS particular weekend, he does have to work. Boo!

We have been working on our family book. My parents wanted to write a little message in it, welcoming any kids who read it, which is really sweet. I have to find more pictures of me. I like to take pictures, but I am not a fan of being in them. I am going to have to get over that! I also have to include a values statement and a mission statement. That is the hardest part thus far. A few sentences to summarize what we want for our kids. That is a pretty lean breakdown to say the least!

We also need to finish our birthparent letter. It's pretty hard. There are a lot of mixed emotions, and you don't want your joy to interfere with their pain. Lot's to think about.

Wednesday, September 26, 2012


I really had myself all worked up over nothing on that HSG!

The speculum hurt...but it always does. I had some minor cramping for about an hour afterwards. Other than that, no big deal. I did take the 800mg of Ibuprofen recommended by the doctor an hour before.

The good news is, no blockages, no scarring. Everything looks good! Now we are just waiting for Greg to get a semen analysis so that we have all the details. Again, we are not going to start the hormone treatments right away, because frankly, I am just not ready to do that at this point. But if we already have all this info, then we can start right away when we are ready.

Sunday, September 23, 2012


There are a lot of things going on lately.

For one, we turned in our preliminary paperwork for adoption. I am SUPER excited. We were the first ones, so hopefully, we will be the first ones processed and the first to begin our homestudy.

I made up announcements for family and friends, and one to put on Facebook. I haven't ordered the ones we are mailing out, because I am still too nervous. They are really pretty, and have the adoption creed printed on them. We also linked to a website we created for our friends and family to follow our progress. It has less info than this blog, because I am not ready to share every gory detail with my entire family, and my husbands extended family least not in that way.

At this point we are taking a break from fertility treatments. We are however, still doing some investigating. We are checking for other causes besides the PCOS for our fertility issues. If you have read this blog for a while, you know that we had this option towards the beginning of this issue, but we thought it was best to wait. Now I wish I had done it then. I am having an HSG this Tuesday, and Greg is having a semen analysis. Once we find out what is happening, the doctor will give us some options. At that time we will decide whether to continue with fertility treatments or to wait a little while.

Frankly, at this point, I feel frustrated with the whole process, and I feel like this can wait a while. I really feel that adoption is what we are supposed to do right now. I feel like our child, or children are waiting, and we need to go find them.

BACK to adoption,

We are trying to practice positive parenting techniques. We are trying to take this very seriously. We were both lucky to have parents who love us so very much, but for different reasons, we both had parents who brought us up in stressful situations. So, sometimes the parenting techniques weren't so perfect. Frankly, it wasn't really different from, as our teacher called it "Good old fashioned American parenting". If you did something wrong, you got scolded and grounded, there was a lot of arguing and that sort of thing. Through positive parenting, you achieve a happier household, and avoid coercion. I really think these techniques make a lot of sense. It was sort of an "Aha!" moment when we talked about them in class. It was like...oh, that makes so much more sense.

Since I am very new to this, I don't want to explain it improperly, so there are some great resources I found online at the bottom of this post. We try to practice a little everyday, although it is difficult since we don't have kids of our own. We just do the role-playing we find online. Hopefully, it will make it more accessible in our minds when the time comes. (this is the actual homework from the class, try using this for when you practice!) (This doesn't really have anything to do with the above post, it was just handy and I found it!)